Lately, it feels as though my life is spiraling out of control. I feel like I should be so happy, because I have so many great things going for me, including …
1. I have a wonderful support system, including my boyfriends, friends, family, etc.
2. I am finishing up my first year at a full-time job in the field that I went to school for.
3. I am maintaining a 35-pound weight loss and am at the lowest weight that I can remember since … middle school?
4. I live a good life, and there are so many people with struggles so much worse than my own.
Still, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed by the negative sometimes. Especially lately. There are lots of things going on, that, combined, have really left me in a bad place right now. As a result of this stress, I am exhausted constantly. It’s really starting to take a toll. I haven’t had the energy to workout everyday, and I am finding myself reverting to some not-so-healthy eating habits. Luckily, I haven’t really gained any weight, but I also haven’t lost in several weeks now. And I really want to finish the job, before I become complacent and settle into maintenance mode.
Plus, I don’t want maintenance mode to include binging on sweets and Doritos when I am having a bad
day week month. Even when I am done losing weight, I want my life to revolve around healthy habits, because I have found that I feel so much better when I am properly fueled and regularly moving my body.
What is all boils down to is self-control. I am truly lacking in that department. When there are bagels in the lounge at work, I can’t stay away. And most of the time, I can’t even stop at one. When there are chips in my pantry, I eat them. And never just one serving. When there is frozen yogurt on the way home, I stop to get some. And my cup runneth over. You get the idea.
I have always wanted to be one of those people who is able to stop eating when they are not hungry, and not continue to gorge myself simply because the food is there. But that’s not me. Can I train myself to eat more intuitively? Only time will tell. Right now, inspired by another blogger, I am pledging to try a One Week No Cheat challenge. This means that when I am tempted to stray from my planned healthy eats, I will remind myself that I can be strong and #takecontrol. I am hoping that taking steps to take control of this area of my life will inspire me to continue to make changes to achieve happiness.
Life is too short.
P.S. In other news, I ran a 5K yesterday in 25:52! I plan to write about it soon when I am in a better place. Thanks for understanding!